Hey everyone. I am still adjusting to the ureteral stents that are in place, causing the frequent urination issues. I still get fatigued but not as quickly as before. I have had some abdominal pain due to the stents and constipation caused by a few of my medications.
The immunotherapy session I had went well (other than the infusion reaction I got), so the oncologists were happy about that. The added aggravation that I live with now is feeling cold much more often, and brief bouts of shivering.
I have also been having some mental struggles the last few days. The feeling of guilt I have watching people (especially Jamie) have to do so much for me, and because I am still weak (from the chemo - can last up to six months) I cannot help him much. Things we used to do together, he has to now do himself. So I am feeling a real level of guilt.
The Doctors keep reminding me that I am still early in this Journey. I just finished a very successful chemo treatment, a month and a half ago. They infused me with a significant amount of chemo. The effects of the chemo (fatigue, weakness, etc) can carry on for up to six months following the end of chemo. Right now I am still dealing with the effects of the chemo.
They also reminded me that I just started immunotherapy that has it's own set of challenges. And that will take a while for me to get used to.
I know none of this is my fault, and I know that Jamie helps me because he loves me and is in this journey with me, but it doesn't erase the guilt I feel some days. It's been a tough few days.
I am sure it will pass. Like my Doctors say, it takes time.